INSOMNIA

I’m lying awake in the middle of the night
with so many things on my mind
all at the same time.
Just like school children talking at once,
hoping to get the teacher’s undivided attention.

Wait children! Wait!
We all have a story,
but everything happened once upon a time,
not twice together!

Like someone in a library scanning books,
looking for something interesting to read,
I scan through the shelves of my mind,
looking for a thought worth focusing on,
and the one about you is the one I retrieve.

You with your blue eyes,
your calm voice,
your traumatised soul …
Is it a sin for me
to want to pull you closer,
just to reassure you:
everything’s gonna be okay,
although I really don’t know for sure.

I want to do to you
exactly as one song says:
tell you sweet little lies
to take the pain away.
But the thing is that you’d know
I’m just lying to make you feel better.
After all, you’re no kid anymore …

I can’t sleep …
I can’t sleep!
You’re on my mind now,
all the time,
non-stop,

and the thought of you
brings many tears to my eyes,
because I hate seeing you like this.
I have insomnia tonight …
I’m wasted … for you …

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Author: Jaz

I'm a down-to-earth Christian woman in my thirties, happily married, and the mother to two kids, a boy and a girl. I love writing, because it gives me the platform to be creative. However, this is not all there is to it for me. Writing about stuff also serves as a kind of a therapy that helps to equip me to overcome life circumstances positively, which was the initial reason for my decision to join Wordpress, because then I'd be able to launch a personal blog where I can share my life experiences, life lessons, and emotions at a given time. As such, I would definitely appreciate your listening ears (or reading eyes) if they are well-intended, but most certainly not if they're aimed at fishing what's going on in my heart, or if the only aim is to continuously criticise. Oh, and just to make sure you won't be disappointed: as a rule, I don't do pics. I might add a picture sometimes, but in general, adding pics to the stuff I write isn't realy my thing. Nevertheless, I hope you'll enjoy whatever you read here, and I'll be very pleased if you find some of the articles helpful or if they can positively contribute to your life. You're more than welcome to follow me if you like. I'd feel very honoured if you do that, and ... I FOLLOW BACK!

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